Thursday, November 26, 2009

Beginner's Block

This is what I have always been afraid of. The beginning. Starting something new. Once I begin will I follow through with it for once in my life? Is everyone going to judge me? Is writing, sharing my thoughts and inspirations, going to give me the confidence to find my creative voice and finally express the self that I have trapped in this body?

I never write because I'm afraid that it won't be good enough. I am my own worst critic. I am the belligerent father screaming "Don't even try, you know you're going to fail!"

I'm going to lock the old man in the closet, muffle the yells with a tattered jacket.
I'm going to try, give it a whirl, a twist, a twirl. Give it a wink, take it out for a drink, bring it back to my place.

I can't fail if I never begin.
Here's to the beginning.